Excited (?)

Dwain Northey (Gen X)

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There are numerous synonyms for excited and I have been pondering every possible permutation of the word trying to answer the question posted today. I can honestly say that I haven’t felt at all that particular emotion, if that’s what excitement is, in a very long time. So long in fact that it is hard for me to even remember ever being excited.

The truth is that something that most of us may have felt excitement or elation for in the past may now be a sour memory. I am sure we all have our own personal examples. So, I can’t sincerely answer the question… can say that I am not depressed, no need to worry about that. Do I need counseling, well probably.  

At this moment in time, I am in the words of ‘Pink Floyd’ Comfortably Numb.  

Song by Pink Floyd

Hello? (Hello? Hello? Hello?)

Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?
Come on now
I hear you’re feeling down
Well I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again
Relax
I’ll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying
When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like two balloons
Now I’ve got that feeling once again
I can’t explain you would not understand
This is not how I am
I have become comfortably numb

I have become comfortably numb

Okay (okay, okay, okay)
Just a little pinprick
There’ll be no more, ah
But you may feel a little sick
Can you stand up?
I do believe it’s working, good
That’ll keep you going through the show
Come on it’s time to go

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move but I can’t hear what you’re saying
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown
The dream is gone
I have become comfortably numb

Hope I didn’t bum anyone out.